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irk


"How's it going to be..."

I'm a little tired now with all thats happened. But then its like I haven't done anything, really.

Its all so bleak. Still. I don't even know if my Mum's still alive. And I know I keep thinking of her with all this dignity and royality and whatever, but my head hurts and I'm not used to this sort of creepy stuff.

Why can't I wake up and it all be a dream?

Maybe I'm just mad at Axel. All these mixed up feelings. No incantation can take it away. I'm really ready to let him have it. Although, he's not even worth much at the moment, laying around all drowsy.

We just have different kind of aches, I guess.

He says I talk to loud. Its like he's been sauced or ferminting in wine.

"So whats going on with...with this." Its hard to do whatever it is you're supposed to be doing when the past just blows you away. "Where's your memory? You say I'm the one who can't remember where I've been, well, this... just takes the cake, and I guess you plan to eat it to." So maybe I wasn't making sense.

"Believe me, I never meant to hurt you, never." He keeps his eyes closed a lot now. He's still not well.

"Then stop making stuff up and tell me the truth!" I demanded even if I am so hungry I'm ready to lick the walls of this place just to find nurishment.

"Its just this world has so many pleasures, its so hard to make sense of it even. Don't you see there was a time I missed you so and then when it was possible that I could..."

He couldn't even make sense of it now. He knows he's wrong.

He's gone off now. Left the cave. I don't care if he does come back. What if he's only a wolf by nature?

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