 profile notes guests older host Climbing up on Solsbury Hill I could see the city lights Wind was blowing, time stood still Eagle flew out of the night He was something to observe Came in close; I heard a voice Standing, stretching every nerve I had to listen; had no choice I did not believe the information Just had to trust imagination My heart going boom boom boom - peter gabriel >>the players: Enid:not your ordinary princess. Axel: fairy/changling Duncan:new acquaintence Xander:not a forgotten lover. Brother: to Enid. >friends readers book 1 book 2 25 I've cleaned up as much as I can around here. I've kept the fire going. The very old fashioned way. I wish I could blink or something and make things work, but nothing. Just me. Plain old me. I went for a walk earlier. Only I didn't go very far. Afraid, perhaps. I never felt this helpless before. If only I could appreciated the landscape more. It is special. Untouched, mostly. I feel free here. Only to free. Its strange, the concept of freedom. Its like if the focus on the inside of you isn't there then you can't really hold the freedom. But are you allowed to hold freedom? Maybe I just need sleep. I haven't slept. Actually. I keep thinking...what Axel said. He and my mother were close at one time. I'm not sure when. Probably before my mother became Queen. Probably before she met my father. That is if he is my father. I'm beginning to doubt so many things. A part of me would like to tear myself open and bleed this mess away and say its finished. I hope he comes soon. Please come home soon.
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